Just A Glance-

Just a glance at book 2:

 

It’s funny how time has a way of making you forget things . . . and remember them at the same time. Sometimes these memories are like flashes of light, and at other times, like large rocks dropped in a pond. The waves of our memories—like the events themselves—roll out in a series of ripples, each eventually affecting the course of the next.

Some details fade, while others—like emotions, smells and sounds, colors, words and images—unexpectedly emerge, or they come at us like lightning flashes, searing our minds.

And as so many memories playing in my head, I can see now how everything happens for a reason . . . which brings me to this story.

You see, I’ve always wanted to share my story but never thought I’d actually do it. Never thought I’d have the courage or the drive . . . or the purpose. Yeah, my life has definitely been marked with waves of chaos and despair—a bit of turmoil, you could say. My family and I could definitely be on a few episodes of Jerry Springer.

This story here—this part of my life you’ll read on these pages—is probably one of the most meaningful ones I could share. Please understand, this chapter of my life is just as much a part of my truth as any other chapters I choose to reveal, so it’s personal to me. I’ll never deny what I’ve done in life; I own everything I do or have done! I may not share all the gory details, but I’ll give you the truth of it. It might take me a while to own it, but trust me, I do.

It wasn’t until my late 30s that I started to understand myself—and my life. Why I do the things I do, and why I’ve done the things I’ve done. I started to understand how one event in my life has led to the next event, and the next . . . and the next, and the next, and the next . . . with no real stopping in between. Never really giving myself a mental break or a time to reflect and reset myself mentally or emotionally. It was like a non-stop roller coaster ride. Non-stop chaos with no real healing able to squeeze between the next spiral and the next big freefall. Yet no healing means no growth!

And definitely no peace.

 

This is just a glance. Let me know what you think. 

 

References:

Kiki

 

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